Monday, January 3, 2011

Just Take Your Medicine

Eight more boxes and then I am free....or not. It's a cliffhanger. Believe me when I say, I am really looking forward to the finale. I hope I have a role for the spring riding season.

I'm gonna give my shoulder a test drive tomorrow. I injured it swimming and have been out of the pool for a few weeks. It doesn't hurt, but I am aware there is weirdness. If it hurts, I plan to ramp up the walks and trainer, which I have also abandoned, in this latest crisis of faith.

Getting off the thinners is the goal, and brings with it a certain amount of anxiety. I have to wait a month and get re-tested for blood issues. Thinners suck, you can't ride mountain bikes on them, but they keep you from having strokes. Getting off would be great, provided I am healthy. During that month, I will feel like I am looking for a gas leak with a lighter.

Like all things scary, the concept is usually worse than the reality. The waiting is the hardest part. I have figured out how to navigate my little routine here at Shawshank. I always dreamed of getting out, but now I am afraid to leave.

At the very least I will get to do some riding for that month. Light, non technical, less radical riding than I would like, but riding none the less. I will use my furlough well. I promise.



juancho said...

"Brooks was here."

"So was Red."

Be Red.

BIGWORM said...

I'll keep getting you knew chicky posters, you keep smuggling the wall to the yard. Either way, I'll see ya on the beach!

Anonymous said...

I am totally rooting for you my friend. This is such a weird time in our lives and few can understand it. But we do.

I am off the blood thinners. Its good to say that and after expressing my fears to my cardiologist I also feel confident. His words were reassuring and his confidence became mine. Besides, what else is there to do? Live in fear? HA! yeah right. Guys like us have conquered fear many different times in our lives...this is just one more time. I haven't taken a mountain bike ride yet but plan to shortly.

This is what I have to say to my fellow sojourner, "it gets better and the wait although painful isn't really that retrospect!"

Do well, live life.


Human Wrecking Ball said...

Jeff, Thanks for coming by and for the inspirational words. I cannot tell you how comforting it has been to have a cyclist with the same issues as me out there.
Everything you said is dead on, and knowing you are going to be riding makes my load a lot lighter.
Light a fire for me out there pal, I'll be there soon.